Monday, October 5, 2009

Ch- Ch- Ch- CHANGES!

Okay, so I have sat in my room most days, and have thought about the past.
High School...
First year of college...
Mistakes...
Family...
School activities...
Friends...
Music...
Movies...
Clothes...
And you know what I realized? I have changed! And you want to know something else? I like the person I have become, and I don't want her to leave.

It's weird to look on the past and see the things that have occurred. At times, when I think back, I don't feel good. I feel sick to my stomach, I feel like I could have handled things better. But, without those "accidents", I don't think I would be where I am now. Being at the school I am at, I can feel myself getting happy. I can feel weights being lifted off my shoulders, and I know that, honestly, I don't need to deal with those things anymore. I can MOVE ON! I don't have to hide behind a mask to be who I want. I am now free to be the girl I want.

It took a lot to get me to this point... And, obviously, I still make mistakes. I still do things that I most likely shouldn't do, and I choose things that aren't good. But, I am doing it less and less, and I love that.

So, will the old Symone please step aside, and allow the new Symone to take your place. It'll be better, I promise :]

LOVES <3

1 comment:

Chelsie said...

this is what i thought when i read this:
"will the real slim shady please stand up? please stand up? please stand up?