Monday, January 31, 2011

Luke 8:24

"And they came to him, and awoke him, saying, Master, master, we perish. Then he arose, and rebuked the wind and the raging of the water: and they ceased, and there was a calm."

Not only can Christ calm the winds of the sea, but He can calm the storm in our hearts.  He can calm the storm of life that we are going through.  We just need to remember that.
Pick me.  Choose me.  Love me.

I love Grey's Anatomy.

Saturday, January 29, 2011

Where can I decrease to help someone increase?

On Thursday, I went to my Foundations Capstone class.  My teacher always starts the day off with a spiritual thought.  That day, his spiritual thought went something like this...

He told us the story of one time when he was playing in the NBA (the Noon Basketball Association, in case you were wondering) where a group of faculty members play basketball on Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays.  About five years ago, he was playing with these guys, and he was guarding a short, 60-year-old guy.  When this older guy was about to take a shot, my teacher totally stuffed him.  Right after doing it, my teacher felt guilty, and decided that the next time that man was going to take a shot, he wouldn't take that chance away from him.  But, as the game went on, the 60-year-old's team didn't pass him the ball ever again, so he never got that chance to shoot.  My teacher took that one chance away from him!

So, five years later, this event is still haunting my teacher.  As he was thinking about it, he read in the New Testament something interesting.  In John 3:25-26, essentially what happens is that some of the men who were following John the Baptist asked him, "Remember that guy you baptized?  Everyone is following Him now, how does that make you feel?"  And John's response was, "He must increase, but I must decrease."  John wasn't mad at the fact that people were following Christ now, and he knew that his followers had to decrease in order for Christ's to increase.

Our teacher told us that this was such an amazing moment for him, because he realized that there were times in his life where he needed to decrease in order to allow someone else to increase.  And he ended his spiritual thought by saying, "I want you guys to think about where you can decrease in order to help someone increase."

I found that to be so interesting.  Where can I decrease in order to help someone else increase?  Where can I help someone so that, instead of feeling down and upset, they can feel happy and uplifted?  What can I do to serve?

Now, I ask you the same question.  Where can you decrease in order to help someone increase?  Trust me, it's amazing the kind of answers you receive when you truly think about this.

Thursday, January 27, 2011


And I feel SO GOOD!

Wednesday, January 26, 2011 keeps every letter written...

Here are some of my favorite things that I have written.

"Alright, remember to always trust in the Lord, and go to him when you have trouble. Pray and fast when you are needing to make decisions. The Lord has many great and wonderful things planned for you. Just remember that. This will hopefully be one of the best times of you life.  You are going to be a wonderful missionary. You are already a spiritual giant, I can't wait to see the change in that when you get back. Which I am planning on coming to your homecoming, btw. Keep the faith, and hold to the Iron Rod. It will get difficult at times, but you can't allow that from stopping the work that you are doing. Try to like the people you serve with, they will be the only ones you can really talk to. Read your scriptures, and try to get something new out of them every time. Don't forget to write letters when you can. We don't want to be forgotten. "

"I hope that you are doing okay. You just have to remember that the Lord wanted you to serve at this time, even if you feel you aren't ready, or if you feel scared. He wants YOU to serve the people, and He wants YOU to spread His gospel. You can do this. I believe it, and I hope you do too.  Also, it's okay to be scared. I'd think you were crazy if you WEREN'T scared. But honestly, things will get easier as time goes on. Don't give up!   One last thing. You and your family will be blessed for what you are doing. Things will work out for you and them. Just trust the Lord, He does know what He is doing :).  ANYWAYS I better let you get back to doing all those important things to prepare for your mission! Be safe, stay strong, trust the Lord, read the scriptures, pray, and always know that things will be okay."

"Stay strong, be safe, and remember to put your trust in the Lord's hands. He will direct you to where you need to go, and will help you get through anything. 'If God brought you to it, God will bring you through it.'"

Now, all of these things are what I need to think of and remember at this point in time.  I am glad to have found these, so I can remember what can help me get through this tough time.

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

"Moving on is simple, it's what you leave behind that makes it so difficult."

Monday, January 24, 2011

Something isn't right...

Can't Sleep.

It is 1:18 in the morning.  I am sitting in my living room, with Hannah Montana playing in the background.  Why that show?  Because it seriously is the only interesting, appropriate thing that is on TV right now.  As I am sitting here, typing this, I realize that I have no need to be awake this late.  But, yet, here I am.  That's happened to me a lot in the last couple of days.  I don't have any need to stay up late, but I do anyways.  I'd say it's because I have a lot of my mind, which is no lie, but that isn't why I am still awake.

The problem is that I don't really KNOW why I am still awake.  I mean, I bet if I wanted to, I could go lay down in bed, close my eyes, and fall asleep pretty easily.  But, I don't want to.  I just feel like there is a reason why I am awake, and I need to find out what it is before I can go to sleep.

Ugh.  Now I am just rambling about not being able to sleep.  LoL sorry about the random blogs lately.  I just haven't known what to say.  Actually, no, that isn't true.  I DO know what I want to say, but I don't know how best to write them out here.  Maybe I don't need to put them on here.  Maybe I can just write them out in a journal or something... Hmm...

Anyways, I'll write more later.

Sunday, January 23, 2011

Definition of a Good Friend

Someone who is there to MAKE YOUR LIFE BETTER. 
Someone who WON'T BAIL ON YOU. 
Someone who you can argue with and still KNOW IT WON'T END YOUR FRIENDSHIP.  
Someone who will TRY AS HARD AS YOU.
Someone who knows that they should keep them and DO WHAT IT TAKES TO KEEP THEM AROUND. 

... some people have this messed up.

I got this off of a friend's Facebook status.

I want to feel emotion.

I want to be mad, or pissed, or sad, or hurt, or something for longer than a day.  I really do.  But, for some reason, I am indifferent, and I can't be mad, sad, hurt, or pissed.  I am a Daughter of God, and I deserved to be treated better than that.  But, he is a Son of God, and he used his agency to make that choice.  Nothing I can do or say will change the outcome of what has happened.  BUT just because I am indifferent does NOT mean that I want to hear about her, or what she looks like, or anything of that sort.  Just leave it alone.  It doesn't help me at all to hear about it, and I don't want to talk about it, so please.  Just drop it.

Friday, January 21, 2011

My family.

My love for my family and my roommates has grown an AMAZING amount over the last few days.  They are sticking by me through thick and thin, and I can't even begin to describe how that makes me feel.

Thanks for sticking by me at this time, family.  It really means a lot to me.

There's only one thing to say.

Forget you.

Thursday, January 20, 2011

You were never "just another guy" to me.  But I became "just another girl" to you.  You don't think about me, or how I am feeling, or how something will make me feel.  I am hurt.  I am angry.  And I don't think you deserve a place in my life right now.  You are oblivious.  Whether you choose to be that way or really are, I don't know.  But I can't deal with it anymore.  I don't feel important, appreciated, or needed in your life.  So, why put more effort in than I am getting?

Please, leave me alone for a little while.  I need my time.

Number 300

I am a Daughter of God.  I have a Heavenly Father who loves me for who I am, and will always love me.  He is around to help me get through the hard times in life, and will always be there for me.

I am a Daughter of God, and I deserve to be treated as such.

Lately, I haven't been treated like that, but that will change.  I deserve to have someone who will work for me.  I deserve someone who will tell me the truth at all times.  I deserve someone who wants to see me, and doesn't feel obligated.  I deserve to be loved for me, and to have fun with someone.

So, for that reason, there will be some changes made in my life.  For right now, there are certain people that I will not be talking to.  And I will live my life, and stay strong.

I deserve to be treated better than I have been treated, and one day someone will come into my life who will treat me like the Daughter of God I am.

Wednesday, January 19, 2011

A realization.

I am NOT ready to be in a steady relationship at this point in time.  Maybe after a little while, I will be ready, but I am not ready for that right now.

That's all.

Friday, January 14, 2011

Oh Utah.

I am so glad I was able to come down for the weekend.  I already feel tons better.

Thursday, January 13, 2011

Adóreme con todo su corazón, y muéstreme que usted merece mi amor.

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

I am going to be okay.

I will be whole once again.  Whatever happened during the summer happened.  I WILL get over it and I WILL be okay.

So what if my best friend is ignoring me and not allowing me to see what is going on?  Oh well!  I WILL be okay, and I WILL get through this, with or without them.

I will become whole.  I realize that I don't need another person in my life in order to be happy or feel like myself.  I can be me, and I can be happy and content and comforted without someone else in my life.

So, that is what I am going to do.

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

I get it now. I understand.

I just know what I want, and you don't.

That's the issue.

Saturday, January 8, 2011

Seahawks Win!

Alright, so today has been full of ups and downs.  But, it was an okay day overall. 

 My team, the Seahawks, played the New Orleans Saints and were considered the underdogs.

The game was played at Qwest Field, so my Hawks had home advantage.  The game started off rocky... The first quarter ended with the Saints ahead, 10-7.  The end of the second quarter had us in the lead, at 24-20.  Then the third quarter ended with us at 34-20.  Then, the Saints started to come back.  And, at this point, I was on the edge of my seat, so excited to see what was going to come.  

Matt Hasselbeck 

Marshawn Lynch

 My quarterback, Matt Hasselbeck, was on a roll tonight.  He was playing super well, and I am so happy.  Marshawn Lynch has to be one of my all-time favorite players now.  He did the greatest run I have ever seen!

This run led to the underdog Seahawks beating the reigning Super Bowl Champs, the Saints, 41-36.

Seriously, best game I have ever seen.  I really hope that the Seahawks can keep this up in order to win other games.  But, even if they don't win other games, they beat the Saints.  With an amazing game.  And that is amazing to me.

Friday, January 7, 2011