I want to feel emotion.

I want to be mad, or pissed, or sad, or hurt, or something for longer than a day.  I really do.  But, for some reason, I am indifferent, and I can't be mad, sad, hurt, or pissed.  I am a Daughter of God, and I deserved to be treated better than that.  But, he is a Son of God, and he used his agency to make that choice.  Nothing I can do or say will change the outcome of what has happened.  BUT just because I am indifferent does NOT mean that I want to hear about her, or what she looks like, or anything of that sort.  Just leave it alone.  It doesn't help me at all to hear about it, and I don't want to talk about it, so please.  Just drop it.