Sometimes, I feel like an old lady.

My body aches. I went to bed early and woke up early basically the whole break. But, I'm okay with feeling like an old lady sometimes. It reminds me to appreciate sleep, and health. Weird, but it does :D

Imagine all the people...

I love remakes of songs. Or people taking a song and putting their own twist to it. I think that's why I love Glee. It takes songs and puts a different twist to it.

This last episode was a good one. And this song was amazing. I cried like a little baby.

I think I'll try DEFYING GRAVITY!!!

I have been listening to this song ALL DAY! Well, ever since 11:00 a.m. today. It is such a great song, and it is most likely my new favorite song... For now :]

Oh Glee, I love thee

I love the music, the story line, the characters, EVERYTHING about this show! Ah, I love finding a new TV show that I can love.

:D

Oh the things you hear from missionaries...

"[T]hen it's lights out by ten thirty! That's when I lay in bed, ear plugs in, trying to ignore the fog horn-esque snoring that eminates from the 6'6" 300 pound black missionary across the room. Oh my gosh. It's amazing I sleep at all, I tell you what! But, don't get me wrong, he's an awesome guy. Love everything about him, minus that."

I laughed hard when I read this. :]

Fremont Troll

The person on the right of the troll is Ian. Yes, it is a big troll.

This is the Fremont Troll. It's one of those places that not a lot of people know about up in Seattle. Usually, you see the Space Needle, Experience Music Project, and other touristy spots. This is a lesser known area.

I love this troll. I was looking at a list of the world's most unusual monuments, and number 5 out of 12 was this guy here. We made it on the list!!!

As an earlier post said, I am a Seattle girl through and through. If you ever want to visit Seattle, or Washington in general, I can show you around ;)

Just a random blog... Way random, I know, but I got excited when I read about the troll :D

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Sister Talk

Sydney

ugh i hate emotions

5:07pmSymone

so do i

5:08pmSydney

why do they exist?

5:09pmSymone

Because they help us show how we are feeling, and help us learn and grow

5:10pmSydney

why do you have to be so philosophical?

Hahaha I was talking to my sister just now about feelings and things of that nature. She said that she just has a lot going on, which led to the conversation above.

I'm not philosophical, but apparently my sister thinks I am. LoL I love her.

Oh the future...

I hate thinking about the future. Not because I don't like imagining what it will bring, who will be in it, and what cool inventions will be brought about, but because I don't like imagining something, then thinking it could happen, then hoping, wishing it would happen, and then have it not happen.

So, I will focus on the here and now. The present. School, church, friends, family. Writing to all my missionary friends that are now serving the Lord. Some will be home soon, some won't be for another two years, but they all need support and love. I send that through letters.

Oh I do love letters, packages... Basically anything that comes the 'ole snail mail way. It just feels like Christmas every time I get a letter! Wow, what a weird tangent to go off on hahaha.

Anyways, moral of this blog, don't worry too much about the future. Worry about the present, because it's only here once! ;)

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You only have one life. Get rid of the things that you hate and fill it with the things you love♥

"Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change; Courage to change the things I can; And wisdom to know the difference."

Relaxation, Pandora and Food.

Today has been a chill day, and I love it. This morning, my roommates (Chelsie, Zoie, Anne) and I went to Winco, and we got FOOD! Oh, it feels good to look in the fridge/ cupboards? and see food that I can eat whenever I want to. Chicken, pasta, pineapples, bell peppers... The list goes on.

Shout out to Chelsie. THANKS FOR DRIVING US TO WINCO! SAVED ME A TRIP TO BROULIMS, EVEN IF IT IS 20 FEET AWAY :]

Then, we come back and I didn't really feel like going to my group meeting. A few minutes later, I get a phone call. "Would you mind if we didn't meet today? I don't see the use in it." "No, of course I don't mind." *score!!!*

So, we have been lounging around our apartment, reading books, listening to Pandora, and having a great day.

By the way, Pandora is amazingly awesome! I never REALLY listened to it before by myself, so I did yesterday and today, and it might become one of my new best friends. Whoever came up with it is a pure genius.

So, hopefully, this night continues as the day has been. Chill, relaxing, but great at the same time.

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If God brought you to it, God will bring you through it.

I try to find new quotes to use in letters I send, as my Facebook status, or just to have stored in my mind and remembered for those times that I need it.

I was looking through my friends' Facebooks yesterday, and one of my friends had this as their status. It kinda fits with everything that has been happening in my life as of late.

Last weekend was a bad weekend. A bad bad bad weekend. I really didn't know what to do, how to handle anything, what to say. It was just bad. As time has passed, I realized that I will get better. Eventually, things will be just fine, and I will feel okay once again. I'm starting to now. The point is that God will always be there to help me and anyone else who needs it, no matter what. We just have to go to Him, and allow Him to help. He won't leave us alone.

I've been inspired by the tiny miracles I have seen in my life in the last few weeks, in case you couldn't tell. That's why most of my blogs have been about the power of Heavenly Father and what He can help us with. I promise I will give a blog of updates soon!

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Mother Eff

I hate group things. I mean, I get the meaning behind having them and what-not, but I am really starting to dislike them.

I hate missing devo.

I hate how fast life is changing right now.

I hate how I have no idea what life will bring next in my life.

I hope things will start to pick up and get better soon!

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Mission Prep Class

Honestly, my class is the greatest ever. It always makes me feel way better, and brings the Spirit into my life first thing in the morning. I always hear what I need to in that class. Tuesdays and Thursdays are so great.

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Thoughts never cease

"Our greatest fear is not that we are inadequate, but that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that frightens us. We ask ourselves, 'Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, handsome, talented and fabulous?' Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We were born to make manifest the glory of God within us. It is not just in some; it is in everyone. And, as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our fear, our presence automatically liberates others." - Nelson Mandela

This quote was said in Akeelah and the Bee which was showing on The Disney Channel yesterday. This quote shows that I am not afraid of growing up, of making decisions. The thing I am most afraid of is ME! I don't feel, right now, that I am gorgeous, or brilliant, or fabulous. I don't feel like I deserve anyone to date or marry since I am not the best person. I am still as closed off as I was a year ago, even if I feel that I have changed. Don't get me wrong, I know that I have grown, that I have changed, that things will get better. But, why does life have to be so hard? Why did I do the things that I did? Why did I allow myself to be broken?

I hate you. I hate everything you put me through. I hate you for making me feel like I HAD to do something, when really I didn't. I hate you for saying that you loved me, and for me believing it. I hate you for breaking me, but the thing I hate the most is that I can't hate you at all. I can't bring myself to hate you, or anyone else who has, or will, hurt me. I just wish that things had happened different.

Life, my friends, can be hard. It can be tough, sorrowful, and make you want to scream. But, life is also beautiful. Life can bring joy, happiness, fun, and make you want to scream from the buildings that you love life! Time will tell what happens to me, but I sure hope that I can get better, and that I can find someone who will help me feel good, that I will help him feel good, and that we can lift each other and get closer to God with each other. That's what I need. But, for right now, I will focus on my relationship with my Heavenly Father. That is the one and only relationship I need right now.

Help me get through this, Lord. I know I'm probably making it harder than it needs to be, but with your help, that will change.

Sorry for the random blog. It just needed to come out.

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Crap

I'm Broken.

Vroom vroom!

Motorcycle rides are a lot of fun! Having the wind rush by, breathing the fresh air, seeing the open sky above you... wow.

It made me want a motorcycle even more. My mom and dad say no for different reasons (my mom wants me to be safe, my dad says I'm just too short), but it was a great feeling!

Maybe I'll get one when I grow up... Because I still have some growing up to do :)

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There is never an answer to the question that isn't asked.

Take a second to try and understand that. I know I had to when I heard it... :)

What a weird thing to think. If you don't ask a question, you won't get an answer. In order to expand your knowledge, learn new things, get the answers you are looking for, you need to ask questions!

I know that, sometimes, I don't ask questions. But then, how am I supposed to know what others think? What they believe? How they feel? What I'm supposed to know?

Questions, to me, are some of the coolest things ever! I mean, without asking questions, you will never get to know some people, or what you are meant to know, or anything else.

Just something random I have been thinking about today.

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Random Text Messages...

... make my day. It's only 7:48 in the morning, and already my day has been made :)

Group Meetings?

Don't you love when you show up and no one else does? Or when you have a gajillion different group meetings in one week? Yeah, it rocks.

God is good

Prayers do get answered. If you don't think so, then it's because you haven't received the answers you wanted and so just let it go.

He answered my prayer in the sweetest way possible.

Thank you for helping.

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Sleep?

I need sleep. I always tell myself that I will take a nap when I get home, and then I get distracted by other things. Texting a friend, doing homework, watching TV... I really just need to sleep.

Sleeping will help the time pass. Sleeping will calm my troubled soul. Sleeping will help me to not think about if I said the right thing or not. Sleeping will help me.

I really hope that I take the time to take a nap today... I need it.

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Oh my goodness me

I just talked to my best friend for the last time for two years. Not gonna lie, I am worrying A LOT right now, for many reasons.

Be safe, I love you, don't worry. Everything will be okay. Just trust in the Lord, He knows what He is doing.

Please, Lord, help.

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I hate when you are right.

Sometimes, going to class is all you need to do.

Mission Prep has to be one of the best classes I have ever ever taken. I always seem to hear the things I need to in that class.

I've been thinking about a lot of different things over the last few days... weeks... months... Future things, past things, things that I wouldn't mind happening, things I never want to happen again. Feelings, friends, family, problems... so many things. Sometimes, I feel like I am SO in the past or future that I can't seem to appreciate the NOW, the present.

"Everything that takes away from the present takes part of your life away. Don't worry about the past or future, just live for the NOW!"

That was said by my teacher, Brother Clark, in Mission Prep today. I couldn't think of a better time to hear it. Sometimes I let the past experiences of my life affect me. Other times, I stress about the future to the point where I get too scared to grow up, get to the point where I don't even want my future to come because I am too afraid to see what happens to me. But, when I get into these stages, I detract from the now. I don't focus on the wonderful life that I am blessed with having now.

Honestly, I am blessed to be at the school I am attending. I am blessed to have the friends and roommates that I have here and back home. My family is the greatest, and I love them with all that I am. I know that everyone I have ever met has been put into my life for a reason, and I am grateful for that I know that Heavenly Father is there, and that He helps me when I really need it. Today, He helped me see that I really don't need to worry. Live in the now, remember Him, and He will help me be the happiest I will ever be.

If I can be happy, then so can you, Loyal Readers. Don't let the past or future scare you or make you feel inferior. YOU can have a happy life. YOU can find someone you need to be with. YOU can, and will, have a wonderfully magnificent life. Believe in yourself.

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Quotes = Love

On Facebook, I have been really into just putting a quote as my status, and then leaving it there for a bit of time.

This time around, it's "Action may not always bring happiness, but there is no happiness without action."

The time before that, "Music's the only thing that makes sense anymore, man. Play it loud enough, it keeps the demons at bay" or something along those lines.

I absolutely love quotes. I love reading and discovering quotes that fit perfectly into my life. It's just great to see that someone else felt or thought of the things I do as well... If that makes sense...

Anyways, just thought I would say that :]

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Halloween

I had fun this Halloween. We went to a dance party, and it was a blast! I got asked to dance twice by the same guy. It was fun. :] Here are some pictures.