So, what should I do?
GET OVER IT!
These things happened. They are done. Finished. Over. Nothing I say or think about or hope for will change the fact that they happened.
So, here's what I am going to do. I am not going to question it anymore. I am not going to think, "But what if...?" Because you know what that is doing? Holding me back. Not allowing me to progress.
These experiences/events have been placed into my life NOT to hold me back, but to push me forward and make me the best person I can be.
I don't want to live in "what if's." I want to work on being the greatest version of me I can be.
So, no more questions. No more wondering. No more wishing. They happened. They are done. Learn from them. Find the lesson you were meant to get out of this experience. Let go.