While sitting here, I realized something. I have made mistakes. Some mistakes have been so much bigger than the others, and I chose to make them. But, as bad as they may have been, I can't be mad about making them. No matter what, I am a better person because of them. I realized that I needed to drift away to find what is the most important in my life.
I realize, now, that I don't want to be just another girl. I don't want to settle in life. I want my life to be better, full. I want to be with my family FOREVER, even after death. I want to find someone who will truly love me for me, and not try to change me because I am not their ideal person. I want to be a stronger member of my faith, and I want to work on getting a better relationship with my Heavenly Father.
Yes, I have made mistakes. Yes, I have done wrong. But, all that is behind me now. I will be a better person. I will become stronger in my faith, and I will be with my family forever.
Right now, I just need to work on it. All will be okay in the end.
On a lighter note, my classes seem to be going well. I have been attempting to find a job, and have applied online to some places, but there has been no success. I need to work a little more on getting a job. It's difficult living in a college town, though. Especially since I have no car. But I am sure that, if I am meant to get a job, I will.
I miss my family, a lot. But I can't wait until next weekend. I get to see my younger brother, who is at UVU. I also get to see my grandparents, and possibly some aunts and uncles. I seriously can't wait. It should be a great weekend. Don't get me wrong, I am so happy to be here in Rexburg with my roommates, I just wish my family lived a little closer.
Things will get better. I just have to remember that.