Sleep

Sleep, sleep, sleep.

Me and Chelsie have been going to bed early, so I don't understand why I want to sleep all the time.

My head gets heavy... my eyelids start to close... my head droops... forward... zzzzzZZZZZzzzz..

WHOOPS! Sorry, guys. Didn't mean to doze off on ya ;)

But, honestly, I am really sleepy. I am hoping that my body will adjust to this new sleeping schedule I am on, and fast. I can't keep going through my day like a walking zombie!

Love ya, loyal readers.

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This Week

Should be a good week. I mean, we have Conference this weekend. I am going down to Utah and seeing my grandparents, and maybe other family. I get to many wonderful people of my religion speak on topics that I might need. I might see friends, I might not. Depends on how I feel hahaha.

This last weekend I went home. It was a good and bad weekend at the same time. Fights, loss of two different games, and shoe shopping weren't exactly my highlights. BUT I did have fun hanging out with my family and doing things with them.

BTW, Patrick is the cutest boy I have ever ever ever seen, and that will never change... I think...

But hopefully I will get through this week without a hitch, and things will go well.

I love school, but I can't wait until I am done with it.

TTFN, Loyal Readers.

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SO RANDOM!

Okay, so this post might not make any sense, but it's come into my mind a lot recently.

While at school, I have seen a lot of people that look like others from my high school. I don't know why, but it's true. I always take a double look, or have this confusion go across my face.

And, you know, I realized that the Lord truly did make us all in His image. All of us look somewhat alike in some way. I didn't really notice it until now.

Just thought I'd say that.

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3 Hours and 15 Minutes of Sleep Later...

So, I was supposed to have the Book of Mormon done by today, at 9AM.

When I started reading last night, I was in Helaman 6. I had to read 150 pages. I was getting so tired, I honestly thought I couldn't do it...

Here I am, at 8:06 in the morning, after 3 hours and 15 minutes of sleep to tell you, loyal readers, that I did it. I finished the Book of Mormon. And, to be honest, I wouldn't have been able to do it without the Lord's help.

So, thank you for helping me :]

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For Good

There is a song that I listen to whenever I think about my friends. Something that reminds me what most of my friends have done in my life, and what I hope to do in the lives of my friends. It's the song, "For Good", from the musical "Wicked". Although I haven't seen the musical, I have heard and listened to this song many times.

That people come into our lives for a reason, bringing something we must learn, and we are led to those who help us most to grow if we let them and we help them in return.

I believe this line. We truly are led to those friends who will help us to grow, and we have to help them grow as well. I believe that God has a plan for every individual person, and within that plan is who are friends will be. I also think that I have met my bestest best friends before we were even born. That gives me hope.

You'll be with me like a handprint on my heart.

Even though, with some friends, we have split or gone our separate ways, they will always be here. Every friend I have will always have a special soft spot in my heart, and I want them to know that. I also think about what I have learned from every friend, and it helps me see who I want to be in the future.

I ask forgiveness for the things I've done you blame me for.

I know I have made mistakes. I know that I have caused hurt and pain and disappointment to come to my friends, whether we were really close or not. And I want to say sorry. I am sorry for whatever I have done, whatever I am doing now, and whatever I will possibly do in the future.

Another song that I have been listening to "Second Chance" by Shinedown.

"Why you always running in place?"

You know, this happens to the best of us. We feel like we are moving, like we are going forward and then something happens... And we are back at where we started. Or, we don't feel like changing because all change is bad... We need to realize that, when we do this, we are just running in place. We aren't advancing, we aren't getting better.

I AM CHANGING THIS TODAY!

Sometimes goodbye is a second chance

Sometimes, goodbye is what we need. We need that chance to say, "I'm done. I am ready to leave. I am ready to be myself, to not have to deal with this." SOMETIMES GOODBYE IS A SECOND CHANCE! I don't remember that sometimes. And I need to.

Today really is a new day, my friends. I can, and will, do all that I want to do, not what you may want or what you may say I should do.

My name is Symone Stout, and I am my own person. Let me be me.

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Today feels like a New Day

Honestly, I feel like myself again. I am happy, I am concentrating, I am understanding, I am learning and growing. Sure, I still feel doubts come into my head, but they subside, because I know. I know that God exists. How else could the world be as it is? How else could the human body be the way it is? Every single thing here on Earth points towards the existence of a God, a Supreme Being, my Heavenly Father. I don't know how I could be happier.

Lots of things have happened in my life over the last three years, some good, some... not so good. BUT, today, I feel like it's over. Like, I am done. The weight has been lifted, and I shouldn't be worrying about it anymore. Shouldn't talk about it... Shouldn't think about it... Shouldn't...

Reading the scriptures a little everyday has helped with this, I think. Since I started reading them, I have felt the Lord more in my life, and it makes me feel better. I don't ever want this to go away.

I love my roommates. I love my friends, old and new. I love my family. I love my life.

The Lord knew what He was doing when He made His plan. He knew exactly who I would need in my life, what kind of trials I would have to go through. He knew what I would need to say, what I would need to do, and what I would need to think in order to be the beloved Daughter of God I am.

Today is a good day. I just hope these feelings can last the rest of the week.

Loyal readers, I hope that your day is going well, and that you too can feel the things that I have been feeling today.

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Blog Ideas

So, yesterday, I had a lot to think about. I also had a lot of songs that I was listening to that opened the flood gates of my mind and had my imagination start to soar.

Later today, I will be writing about all of that. But not right now. I do have some homework I have to work on.

Side note, I love my friends, and the epic music videos that we make.

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Thursday :D

Today was a good day. I had fun in every class, and finished my homework for the day. I saw lots of people from Puyallup, WA and I love when that happens.

The Office started it newest season. I love this show. It always seems to make me laugh when I need it most.

Ice cream... Office... Scripture reading... Talking to friends. Nothing could be better.

Well... :)

I am now at Alma 17, and am working on finishing the whole Book of Mormon by next Tuesday. I WILL do this, because I KNOW that I can do this.

I go home next weekend. Hopefully my brother will be feeling better enough to play at the football game. But I will also be seeing my sister play volleyball, and I will be going to the Puyallup Fair :D Yessss.

Anyways, loyal readers, I will write more tomorrow. Hopefully I will have more things to write about :)

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Story of my life

So, I was sitting in science class today, and I got this horrible feeling. For some reason, the thought of when I die came into my mind. I will die, and... Blackness. That's all I saw. I started to freak out sitting there in my seat.

I do believe that there is a God, and there is a heaven, and I will be judged, according to what I have done here on Earth. That judgement will then dictate what will happen thereafter.

But, I hate the thought of dying. Like, no joke. Every single time I think about dying, I think of darkness... black... no more light, colors, fun. Just blackness. And that's what scares me. The blackness.

I think that may be a little bit of the reasoning of my being afraid of the dark. It reminds me of the thought I get when it comes to dying...

I don't know why I think this, but when I do it scares me.

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Wednesday

I totally failed at posting something yesterday! I was doing so good, and bleh. Oh well.

Well, I am back at school, and I really feel that way now. Homework, projects, quizzes oh my!

I have a girl who is in both my Ed. 200 class and Eng. 313 class. It was way weird, but cool at the same time. I love having people in multiple classes, like Chelsie. :]

I went to bed before midnight last night, which is the first time I have done that since stepping onto the wonderful campus of BYU-I. It felt good, but I think I should have stayed up and tried to finish some homework... oh well.

Classes are still going really well. I just hope that will stay for the rest of the semester.

I got to the end of Mosiah last night. And now, I have to brave the Alma chapters... Yikes.

Anywho, loyal readers, I will be sure to post more later.

Today's a good day. I can feel it.

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Monday

That's all I can say about today. It was a Monday, which means that I wanted the weekend to continue on, but alas... It didn't.

Today, as far as classes go, was a good day. I found out that I won't technically have science on Friday, so I could stay home. Also, my writing class seems interesting, and I can't wait to start some of those projects.

But I swear the library here at BYU-I wants me to fail. I went there to print off a couple of things, since I haven't been able to buy printer ink quite yet, and I went to log onto my byui account, and the internet didn't work. Yes, I did try other computers, and they failed me. So then, when I went to see if the printers, at least, were working, they weren't. So I guess the internet not working was a kind of mini blessing, but I still needed to do that homework. So, I bought chocolate, went home and worked on other homework. :D

BUT I did eventually finish the homework I needed to. Don't fear.

Now I am sitting here, wondering what to do next. I know I should be reading, but I don't want to. I need more pen pals to write to, because I love writing letters and I love getting letters. It's a win-win situation!!

:) Anyways, loyal readers, I better get off. Hopefully I will have something wonderful to talk about tomorrow!!

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Hard Evening

Today has been a good day. Church was great, my lesson went really well, I met new people... You know, all the things that should happen when you get back out to school. Dinner was very very VERY good today!! Chelsabelle made chicken marinated in Italian dressing, I made rice, Jillisey made baked potatoes, and Kaiti made corn bread muffins. Mmm mmm mmm. So good. Then we, as an apartment and friends, listened to Elaine S. Dalton speak from BYU at the CES Fireside.

Then, directly after the prayer was said, I left. I went to the park to swing, and no swings were open. So I sat on a park bench and just listened to my music. I don't know what happened, but I feel bad. I just wanna cry. Nothing bad happened, which is why I don't feel the greatest. But it's happened.

I told my roommates I'm fine, just because I have no idea what is wrong. Oh well...

Side note: It's been harder to read the scriptures today than it has been all weekend. You'd think it would be easier since it is Sunday, but it's not. Bleh.

Good night, loyal readers.

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So sleepy

For some reason, since I came back to school, I have been way exhausted!! I mean, I know I haven't been staying up later than before, and I haven't been doing any strenuous activities. I am just sleepy. Hopefully this gets better over time.

Side note: When one door closes, another opens. Just remember that.

Loyal readers, I bid you adieu.

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9-11-01; 9-11-09; Classes

So, 8 years ago today, terrorists attacked America on USA soil. No one could believe it happened, and it was a shock to not only me, a new 6th grader, but also to my mom, my family, everyone here in the United States. Who could do this? Why would they? What was the reasoning?

To all those who lost someone on this day, I am still praying and thinking of you. I can't even begin to imagine the pain that you may have felt this day. I hope it has been getting easier as the time goes on.

To those who did this, I hope you don't repeat this mistake. It was a horrible thing to happen to us.

Now, 8 years later, I am lying on the floor of my apartment room, waiting to hear if my roommates are home. I can't help but be sad on this day, thinking about everyone who was lost in this horrible attack. But, what also makes me sad is that, although we as Americans joined together right after this attack occurred, we are drifting further and further apart as the time goes on. We need to be close again, to allow good things to happen and work to get done more proficiently.

I do love this nation, and I know that if we join together, we can do anything.

I started my last two classes today. They both seem to be really great. English will help me prepare to be the elementary teacher I want to be. Natural Disasters will be even greater. Natural Disasters are fascinating to me, and I can't wait to learn more about it.

Side note: I finished 2nd Nephi today, so I am still on track to finish the Book of Mormon in two weeks. I am kinda excited...

Anyways, loyal readers, I will write more later!!

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Once a Seattle Girl, Always a Seattle Girl

It's true, you can't think I'm lying. Seattle/Puyallup/All of WA will always have a special place in my heart.

But I am now back in good ole Idaho, with my roommates. Oh how I missed them!! I have also seen a ton of people from back home, which always seems to make me happy.

School officially started today. I ended at 1:45 PM, and I loved all of my classes. My first class of the day was Mission Prep. Sure, I still don't know if I will be serving a mission, but this class seems way cool, and I know I will get a lot out of it. My second class was Education 200, and I have that class with Chelsie :]. That teacher seems really great, and we have no exams... which, I don't know if I should take that as a good thing or a bad thing... We'll just have to wait and see. My last class of the day was World Foundations 101, which I ALSO had with Chelsie :]!! Yes, we have two classes together, and I am so excited for that. The teacher for that class is the most random, ADD, seems to be on crack teacher I have ever had, and I am excited to see what he will bring to the class.

Tomorrow is a brand new day. I have Advanced Writing for Elementary Ed majors, and Natural Disasters which I am SOOOOOO excited for!

OH! And I also have to read the Book of Mormon in 2 weeks. Like, finish it in two weeks. It started today with reading 1st Nephi, and it goes until the 22nd. I am actually excited yet scared. I hope I can do it!!

Anyways, my loyal readers, that is all for now. Tomorrow I will be talking about those classes!!

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